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Why breakups hit so hard
Over my long (32 years) career as a gay men’s specialist therapist, one of the most frequent reasons guys reach out to schedule a session is the emotionally awful aftermath of a breakup. This kind of loss hurts in a particular way. Shock, bewilderment, anger, frustration, grief, and a deep sense of loss often come in waves.
In my work, I help guys heal from this. Many approaches work reliably, but each person needs a customized plan. Over time, working with hundreds of gay men after relationship loss, I’ve learned which strategies help men recover best. I’ve also seen how some reactions—understandable as they are—become maladaptive and self-sabotaging.
Today, I want to share how this recovery process tends to work, and offer guidance on taking care of yourself. Here are the actions I recommend.
21 actions that help you recover from a breakup
Immediate stabilization
- Take in the news. In mindfulness, we “take in” the present without rushing to react, judge, analyze, or change it. Whether you learn about the breakup in person, by phone, on Zoom, by text, or even by a Post-It note, take it in.
Also recognize that the decision is very likely final. (Another article and podcast episode deal with if and how to get back together with an ex.)
- Initiate your own emotional first aid. Find a place to be alone for a little while so you can collect your thoughts. Avoid reactionary or impulsive behavior—especially acting out in anger and rage toward him, yourself, or someone else.
Give yourself enough time to process the information so you can engage affect regulation of what you’re feeling.
Making sense of why it happened
- Understand possible psychological and interpersonal dynamics. If you start analyzing how or why this happened, several patterns commonly appear.
One possibility is an anxious-avoidant attachment style. Emotional proximity can trigger fear of engulfment—or a kind of castration anxiety—where being in a relationship feels like catastrophic loss of autonomy and feeling trapped. The fear can be irrational, yet still powerful. Many fears are irrational compared to actual risk.
Another possibility is fear of commitment. In this mindset, commitment feels like a cage or straitjacket instead of an opportunity for something good. For some men, fear of abandonment also drives the breakup. They break up “before they can be broken up with,” and try to beat the other person to the punch.
Low self-esteem can also play a role. Deep down, some men don’t feel they “deserve” a good relationship, so they flee to maintain a familiar but painful belief: “I’m not good enough for the good things in life.” Others carry unprocessed trauma and don’t feel ready to be emotionally available until they heal more. Some men avoid repeating earlier relationship dynamics they hated—being controlled, abused, bored, or chronically frustrated.
Another pattern involves exaggerated safety concerns. If someone observed or experienced domestic violence, he may decide that avoiding relationships is the only way to stay safe. We might never know the reason—or the combination of reasons—but these dynamics can prompt someone to flee the anxiety he feels in relationship.
Sometimes it’s simpler: he is not attracted to you emotionally, socially, and/or sexually. That does not mean you are unlovable or unattractive. It means you didn’t meet his emotional/interpersonal and/or sexual needs, and he wants to try elsewhere.
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Breakups can also involve psychological or psychiatric disability. Some people on the Autism Spectrum struggle with interpersonal relationships and may end them prematurely when they feel overwhelmed.
Narcissistic Personality Disorder can limit someone’s ability to tolerate the give-and-take that relationships require. Clinical depression can lead to social withdrawal and breakup. Antisocial Personality Disorder can reduce capacity for empathy. ADD can create distractibility that makes “settling down” hard. OCD can lead someone to leave before a partner “finds out” about symptoms that feel shameful. Avoidant Personality Disorder or Schizoid Personality Disorder can lead to habitual avoidance before closeness feels intolerable.
Again, you may not know for sure. Yet when you try to process “why,” these scenarios can contribute.
Some reasons are more superficial: he thought the sex was boring, or he judged you as not ambitious enough, or not successful enough (aka, rich) for him. These reasons can sound maddeningly shallow. They also happen—sometimes more often than the deeper dynamics above.
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- Beware of making “and therefore” permanent changes to your self-schema. Don’t create “new rules” for yourself that become a permanent burden or self-sabotage based on one relationship experience.
Don’t “go back to women” unless you are truly bisexual. Don’t declare yourself unlovable and withdraw from dating. Don’t decide “men are pigs” and adopt a cynical, defeated outlook.
Aaron Beck, the psychologist who founded Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy, said depression comes from consistent, unrelenting negative thoughts about ourselves, the world, or our future. If you let breakup pain reshape your self-concept, your view of the world, or your future into something grim and inevitable, you risk sliding from normal grief into depression.
The hard feelings after a breakup are inherently temporary. You will heal. You will not feel exactly this upset 3.5 years from now. These feelings subside by their nature, but you need patience.
Grief, meaning, and emotional processing
- Understand the Kubler-Ross stages. In my practice, whether the loss is a breakup or another form of bereavement, grief, or loss, I often see Elizabeth Kubler-Ross’s five stages: denial, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. Any theory can be pilloried in academic discourse, including this one, yet I find it useful.
Most guys facing a breakup go through predictable stages. The stages are rarely linear. They often alternate. When you expect them, they sting less.
Denial is a defense mechanism that creates distance from bad news. It anesthetizes feelings long enough for you to function. Still, the breakup happened. Denial is a primitive, ultimately temporary response.
Anger is common. You may feel abandonment rage: “How dare he?” Even so, each person has the right to enter or exit a relationship at any time. You’re not entitled to his undying love unless he is a willing, committed partner.
Bargaining shows up when you try to negotiate with the breakup: “Maybe this is temporary.” “Maybe he’ll come back.” Those arguments rarely succeed. You may also face a humiliating helplessness, especially if you’re high-functioning and not used to feeling powerless.
Depression can follow anger: “He left because I’m not good enough.” A breakup can create the illusion that joy drained out of everything in life. It hasn’t. The parts of your life that were good, fun, rewarding, and valuable still exist.
Acceptance often appears later, or in glimpses. You may feel brief moments of peace. Don’t rush yourself into a premature or superficial acceptance. It tends to emerge after you process what you feel.
- Thinking / speaking / writing. Strong feelings need expression. Thinking can include mindfulness meditation or reflection. Reflect on what you will miss—and what you won’t miss. No one is perfect. When the good ends, the bad ends, too.
Thinking can also become a trap. Notice perseveration, rumination, and brooding. When you get stuck there, move your body. Get active. Get out of your own head. Your life is larger than him. It always is, even in the best relationships.
Speaking helps, too. Talk to supportive family, friends, and, of course, a therapist or coach. Writing can also be cathartic. Journaling helps you get feelings “up and out.” Expressive therapies can work the same way—prose, poetry, art, or music.
Music can be especially validating. Cher’s “You Haven’t Seen the Last of Me,” by Diane Warren, is one of my favorites.
Support, routines, and physical regulation
- Identify your support system—personal and professional. No one should face a breakup alone. It was your loss, but company doubles our joys and divides our sorrows.
As a social worker, I emphasize activating your social support system. I picture concentric circles around you. One circle is professional: your therapist, possibly a medical provider for short-term help (like a sleep aid), or even a hair stylist who helps you feel like yourself again.
Another circle is personal: relatives, friends, even coworkers or neighbors. This is one reason not to neglect friends when you get a boyfriend. You may need those friends if the relationship ends.
- Go to the gym. Cliché as it sounds, getting out of your head and moving your body helps. Physical movement supports heart function, lung function, blood pressure, hormones, sleep, circulation, and metabolism.
When these systems work well, they support emotional and psychological well-being, too.
- Engage with the gay men’s community. After a breakup, vulnerability to internalized homophobia can spike. A painful gay relationship—or a painful experience with one gay man—should not become a verdict on the entire gay men’s community.
If you’ve had a “bad gay experience,” re-engage with gay community in ways that are good and rewarding. Join a gay-related Meetup group—board games, a book club, a hiking group. Volunteer for an LGBT advocacy organization. Mentor or support another gay man, especially someone vulnerable or disenfranchised.
Give yourself good experiences that challenge the idea that all gay men are rubbish because one man hurt you badly.
Boundaries, friends, and social media
- Divide up the friends: his / yours / shared. Expect social relationships outside the breakup to change. Who gets the friends? Which people were “his” friends and may fade from your life?
Which friends are truly yours and can support you? Which friends are shared and can remain shared, as long as neither of you pressures them to “take sides?”
- Bring critical thinking to social media. Breakups now intersect heavily with social media. Changing your status can feel like a rite of passage.
Resist the impulse to block him everywhere as punishment. If he broke up with you, he likely isn’t obsessed with your social media. If he wanted photos of you, he could have stayed with you in person.
Also resist the urge to trash him in retaliation, even subtly. Most guys aren’t as subtle as they think. People recognize that a vague post like “beware: gaslighting is real” likely refers to your ex.
In emotional vulnerability, protect yourself from unnecessary stress and bad news. Media profits on urgency and alarm: “if it bleeds, it leads.” You can return to the news once you’ve established emotional first aid for yourself.
- Bring it all to therapy. A breakup is one of the most common reasons men begin therapy with me. Recovery takes work. Bringing your thoughts, feelings, and reactions into a professional setting helps—especially with someone who has guided hundreds of gay men through this process.
I know where the land mines are buried. I can offer a map to help you avoid them. I can also listen when you need to be heard. I can empathize when you need to hurt.
Therapy can hold feelings that might overwhelm even your most understanding friends. Friends may care deeply, yet they may not know how to help or what to say.
If this is bringing up recognition or questions, start with curiosity — and let’s have a conversation about what might help.
Email: Ken@GayTherapyLA.com | Call/Text: 310-339-5778
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Rebuilding and moving forward
- Make time for “me time.” In a relationship, you can’t think only of yourself. You have accountability and compromise, in exchange for having someone who would jump on a grenade for you.
After a breakup, you get to indulge yourself. It’s not about the “we” anymore. It returns to the “I.” You don’t have to compromise or consider a partner’s feelings in the same way. You can do what you want, and that can feel self-indulgent and liberating.
- Negotiate the “post-relationship relationship.” If you stay in contact because you share friends, property, children, or even “joint custody” of a pet, you will need to negotiate what the post-relationship relationship becomes.
Existentially, he changes from partner/spouse to “ex”—and, if you’re lucky, “friend.” Even friendship has boundaries, expectations, and parameters. You have no obligation to be friends with an ex if you wouldn’t choose friendship otherwise.
Some men don’t want friendship with an ex because it hurts, feels sexually frustrating, or seems impractical. Don’t agree to what doesn’t feel right. It’s OK for an ex to become a stranger—or “just somebody that you used to know.”
At the same time, you don’t need to badmouth him or perform voodoo curse rituals. Some men make lousy boyfriends and excellent platonic friends. Let the post-relationship relationship become what you both can collaborate on. If others don’t understand, it’s none of their business.
If a new boyfriend enters your life, you may need to explain that an ex is now a close friend, and clarify why he isn’t a threat.
- Prepare what to say if you see him “out.” Many men dread running into an ex—especially in gay spaces like bars, clubs, fundraisers, sex clubs, or orgies. Decide ahead of time what you want to say, if anything.
Rehearse a simple phrase so you don’t need to improvise when it happens. A smile and nod might be enough. “Hi, John, nice to see you” can work, especially if you keep moving. If you speak over the buffet table, stick to small talk: “Nice to see you. Been good? What have you been up to?”
Disclose judiciously. Don’t confess new feelings, attempt to guilt him, punish him, seek revenge, or gloat. Avoid the fantasy performance: “You see that hot guy? He’s my 22-year-old fitness model date and we’re going to Tulum.” Just, no.
If you want a “closure meeting,” ask yourself why. If you want benevolent closure—peace, goodbye, emotional resolution—that can be valid. If your motive is to challenge his decision, charm him, guilt him, or seduce him back, don’t do it. Look hard at your motives.
Sometimes you have to accept that you may never fully understand the breakup. You can still move on.
- Evaluate the relationship. When you’re ready—often after time has passed, and sometimes after initial therapy—reflect on what you can learn. What would you do differently, if anything?
Remember: what might have helped that relationship may not translate to your next one. The next partner will be a different man, with a different personality, background, culture, and values. If your ex didn’t like your dumb jokes, the next guy may find them fun. Consider what you wanted from him, and what of that applies to future relationships.
- Focus on re-invention of the self. After a breakup, I often see what I call a gay men’s “personal renaissance.” Men update hair or wardrobe. Men get promoted. Men redecorate or move. Men relocate. Men start businesses.
After initial grief passes, this can become a time of liberation and overdue change. Sometimes an ex was holding you back. When that impediment disappears, you may feel freer to go for what you want. This can clarify who you are, support authenticity, and increase emotional availability in your next relationship.
- Pamper yourself. If you go through the emotional difficulty of a breakup, you have some self-pampering coming. Treat yourself. Take a vacation. Buy something fun—within reason.
Life contains challenges and rewards. Balance the painful parts with the enjoyable ones.
- Beware of maladaptive coping strategies. When you feel terrible, you may feel tempted to say “fuck it” and anesthetize yourself through excessive drinking, drugs, mechanical or undesired sex, overwork, isolation, impulsive fleeing, revenge urges, or withdrawal and hibernation from life.
Resist that temptation. Consider Jerry Herman’s song “Before the Parade Passes By” from Hello, Dolly!, about a widow choosing to re-enter life after loss (Jerry Herman was a gay, long-term HIV survivor).
- But: let yourself have sex and even date—soon. You don’t necessarily need to wait to date or have sex again. No required waiting period exists. You get to decide.
The Golden Girls once had a conversation about how long the women waited to date after divorce or widowhood. When Dorothy asked Blanche how long she waited, feisty Sophia replied, “Til the paramedics came!” The point stands: it’s up to you.
Music, meaning, and emotional validation
- Utilize affirming music. When you need emotional first aid, consider supportive music. Another Jerry Herman song—this time from Mack and Mabel—is “Time Heals Everything.” It’s sad, and sometimes sad songs validate feelings and facilitate catharsis.
“This Nearly Was Mine” from South Pacific can do the same. “Romantic Notions” from the 1980s musical Romance/Romance validates the wish for things to be different. You get the idea. Choose music that feels timely and validating, and let the lyrics help your emotions move.
In The Wizard of Oz, when Dorothy says goodbye to the Tin Man, he tells her, “Now I know I have a heart. Because it’s breaking.” That’s life. Heartache makes us human. Heartache also shows our capacity for love.
Most of us face it through breakups—or, ultimately, widowhood—even in long relationships. History gives us centuries of cliches that can feel barfy-sweet: “It is better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all.” That can feel like cold comfort. Sometimes the emphasis has to be on the comfort.
Getting support
If you would like support for your own breakup, or if you have a friend who does, consider therapy (if you’re in California, where I’m licensed) or Life Coaching (worldwide). Sessions are available on Zoom, Monday through Friday, in the Los Angeles/Pacific Time Zone.
More ways you can access my content include my 2013 book, “Self-Empowerment: Have the Life You Want!”, available on Amazon or Lulu.com.
Stay tuned for my upcoming e-course series, which can be a more affordable option if full sessions aren’t possible. The courses will cover a variety of topics supporting gay men’s mental health and well-being. More news is coming on those courses, currently being developed.
You can reach me via email at Ken@GayCoachingLA.com, or via phone or WhatsApp at 310-339-5778. I’d be happy to help.
If this topic resonates, you’re not alone — and this is exactly the kind of work I do with men who want real, practical change, not just insight. I help clients turn understanding into action — improving confidence, relationships, and quality of life in a thoughtful, sex-positive, and affirming therapy space.
About the author
Ken Howard, LCSW, CST is a psychotherapist and AASECT-Certified Sex Therapist with over 30 years of experience working almost exclusively with gay men. A former USC faculty member, he is also the host of The Gay Therapy LA Podcast, where he explores the psychology, relationships, and inner lives of gay men — and he brings that same depth and practicality into his work with clients through therapy (CA) and coaching (worldwide) via telehealth.